Bismillah hir Rahman nir Raheem

bismillah hir rahman nir raheem

we dont have any fooooood for tomorrow!!!! I mean, we have it, but there is nobody to pick it up or deliver it and everything is going wrong the DAY BEFORE!!!!!!!! alhamdulillah.

I had to ask this random brother Ive never even met before if he could bring it with him when he's coming...and Im sitting here staring at the screen waiting for him to either check his mail or facebook so he can let me know if its possible or not. i feel like a dork.

and im hungry.
and the hijabs arent here yet either.
haye allllahhhhhhh. help us :(

so I slept through Fajr for the 4th day in a row...I remember Shaykh hussain saying how if we sleep thorugh fajr we shouldnt complain about it, we should say "alhamdulillah" for the fact that we are even realizing the importance and feeling regret for missing it. So alhamdulillah. But I still suck.

The record longest spiritual high(probably around 3 months) is over, I guess. I wish I could be as good inside as what people percieve me to be outside. I feel like I'm lying to people. How can I walk around in a niqaab when I cant even manage to wake up for fajr every day.

blah.